I never anticipated this feeling.
I never prepared for these emotions. I never thought it would be this hard. My season of hard began when we decided to step out in faith, leave our home and families, and follow where the Lord was leading my husband...with our 4 boys (six years of age and under, including 6m old twins) in tow. My season of hard continued after I realized how much I depended on the comforts of home, the help of my family, and the community I had built up over 30+ years. My season of hard began to consume me. I was drowning.
I was bringing destruction into my home...with my attitude...with my words. Not joy. Not grace. Not love. It hurts to say it out loud, but it’s true. At my core, I desire to be a women who brings joy into her home, who enjoys her children and points them to the Gospel, and who builds up her husband and continues to be united with Christ at the center of her marriage. But, my mundane was blocking out all these desires. The struggles of my everyday were leading my thoughts. I was focused on the HARD. I knew I needed the Lord to step in and change my heart. And he lead me to Philippians 4:8...a verse He's lead me to many times before. But this time...I saw the answer to my overwhelm clearly presented in His words... "Finally brethren, whatever is TRUE, whatever is HONORABLE, whatever is RIGHT, whatever is PURE, whatever is LOVELY, whatever is ADMIRABLE, if there is anything of EXCELLENCE OR WORTHY OF PRAISE, dwell on these things." I created this challenge from a place of great need. I needed to change my perspective on the overwhelm I was feeling as a mother with young children, living in a new place, and surrounded with the needs of the everyday that had to be met, but maybe YOU need to change your perspective because a different kind of HARD is consuming you. Maybe your health is in a state of decline. Maybe a loved one has gone astray. Maybe you have responsibilities and demands at work you feel are extremely difficult to meet. Maybe this season of life has met you where you never pictured yourself being. And maybe you're not walking in a hard place. Maybe you're just tired of the everyday. Maybe it's been a while since you've felt the presence of God in your life. Maybe you just need a change. I encourage you to join me!
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Welcome to Dwelling Well Mom! I'm so glad you are here! I'm Christi, wife, mom of boys, Christ follower, picture taker, DIYer, chocolate eater, and coffee drinker. Born and raised a Florida girl, now braving the mountains of Boone, NC, I'm on a journey to find peace in the midst of my mundane. Join me!
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